On Solitude

From ages 10 to 18, I didn't make many friends, and of the few I did have, I wasn't that close to them, so I thought I was weird and antisocial. Then after age 18, I made a lot of friends, from all walks of life and it was great. I was extremely social and likable. Then I realized, being quietly in solitude is one of the best things I can do for myself. I missed solitude a lot. Most of them I don't even like and sometimes they downright pisses me the hell off. I think this shouldn't be such a conclusive problem. Maybe it's the type of people that I associate myself with. They are nice people, but they pisses me the hell off.

I had never been as grateful for solitude after I met them. You don't have to care about other people's feelings. I have the ability to care about their feelings and I understand the gist of why they are mad, but I don't validate their feelings. Because it is usually little things that I don't give a single fuck about. Only fuck I give is how they annoy the hell out of me.

Therefore, choice of friends is important. And also, alone time is important. Social time is important too, just with people that are your kind of crazy.